A carefree child

  In the midst of my solitude,                                       

 somewhere distant in an enduring gloom,                                            

 like a nomad, I wander  

in the pursuit of the unknown

 Counting nocturnal hours,

in the whirlwind, I am overthrown

I open the door and gaze into the woods,

dead and blue they stand, my partners in melancholy

Whisper  in my ears, the message of the wind,

‘despair ,you're destined for ,it has no end"

And then the screams of the sky break the silence

Is it just rain or the nature mimicking my pain?

As I gaze through the windowpane into the garden,

where the flowers stand strangled submerged in pain,

a child on the swing I see playing,

drenched in the rain but far jubilant

I walk my way to him to see

is it real or my phantasm playing hide and seek?

A gentle glare upon his face

A sight in ages to witness

Divinely bliss lit up the soul.

A surreal glistening to behold

"What are you doing

in the cold rain?"

"Playing with the nature,

my elder friend

The swing is amazing

so is the weather

Free your wings

Let's play together".

"What's worth the rejoice

with all the pain?

Life is in thunders,

I don't play in the rain"

"Why are you afraid to embrace the nature?

The world is in your eyes

You're the creator

You've forgotten the gentle touch of the raindrops

The passionate, alluring warmth of the sunrays

the aroma of these beautiful Jasmines and Roses

The swing you played awaits you

but you no longer care"

"Pardon me ! little boy

Didn't get what you say"

"Come with me,

Just follow my footsteps

Don't ask where and don't you ask why

Discover your true-self

Just come by"

Through the dark valley, his footprints, I followed

Thousands of bizarre thoughts just poured

Withered, the leaves of the last autumn

Cluelessly, was gazing the entire horizon

Sheer blackness ; gothic silence

befuddling feelings, all intense

And then in the dreary midnight

The forbidden land as we crossed through,

rushed in, a queer feeling

“God,is it a deja vu?”

So strange yet it feels so close

Do I miss a sign that it shows?

Haunting nostalgia all along the way

Obscure, the fear; Instincts that betray

Nowhere to go, but to keep heading further

The light will guide me It is my charioteer

Closer I get, farther it goes,

have I not enough of all of these woes?

"Stop! little boy quit playing with me

past the black clouds, barely I can see"

No response, not a word he answered

Just a dead silence to leave me all dazzled

No one except for the shimmering light

with no source at all in the cursed night.

Just a vagabond with a heart that's hollow

Abandoned with a gleam only to follow.

Trudging with a hope of seeking  the unknown

crossed, a hundred miles in the whorled lockdown

And then,the blackness began fading off

Trust in the light did only pay off

When all of the gloom slowly disappeared

the haze of my heart and the sky got cleared

The ray got brighter, turned into scintillation

Wiped off the spells of all my delusion

Then,a note on a leaf, I found as I moved on,

was from the boy who had left me in seclusion.

"How does it feel to be back from the oblivion?

To come back to life from an illusion?

Traveling through  the time, did  you find the real 'you'?

The abandoned land, did it feel like a deja vu?

Drowned in what's gone, It's why you wander

Miles of this journey all for your purgation

There's a little seagull who wants to fly

who wants the wind to caress it's soul

But, you cut  the wings then, does it not fall?

The gloom the light,

The rain ,the sunrise

 Everything within you

It's all in your eyes.

So close yet, put into disguise,

You're me and I'm you

A carefree child".